Thursday, June 05, 2008

Killer Waves


WARNING..

This is a very long blog. I know people who read it will be unhappy. BUT I am extremly unhappy at the point of blogging this so.


Here goes.

All the crazy times I have been through.. It just came like waves. One after another and another and another. I guess if I use waves then it really will not end.. I am stuck like this forever.

1. You.
Your lies. Your stories. Never ending. I hope it is not real. You never told me anything much. How you expect me to understand? I tried. Crazy thing is I am still finding out. There seems to be no returns. I am left with only your messages, email, pictures, 2 shirts with me, the plane pins, the plane keychain, the pooh halloween and your musics...

but those are just somethings I could be reminded of you. I need your lapcoat, the watch, the plane we picked that you haven't found the paint to paint, the scent on your blue shirt is super wearing off..I need another shirt, my dad's dvd dude..he have been asking about it=.=

MOST IMPORTANTLY. I need to record you playing the full song of the Canon in D (etc) cause I only have a short version of you playing it.

I know my friends say I should just let go and not get them from you. But I WANT TO. It used to be always you, you and more you. I am happy to say I don't mind but not all the times. IT CAN BE QUITE ANNOYING. BUT it is memorable and crazy I must say.

2. Girlfriends.

I am here to defend myself (and them) that HuiMin, sometimes we really can't stand you. I think I have to learn how to be brave as Christina and Cliff to say things as how I really truly feel. LETS SETTLE THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL. ANY MORE OF THESE I WILL BACK OFF AND LET NATURE TAKE ITS COURSE. I hope this is not just compromising, I WANT it to be collaboration. OK? Lets all take back our EGO(s) and sit down and talk this right sometime next week. I assure you tears and cat fights =.=


It had been a LONG time that we are making an effort to make you feel entertained. I think more work is done by LianLi.

Rememeber sometime during your birthday (I think), you were still with Dabbie, we were at Dhoby, LianLi and I was outside the Neoprint shop trying to discuss what to do. You always give us an unhappy face when you are bored, so it is DAMN OBVIOUS LA CAN! Christ was pissed that you want to go Bugis because you want to shop. I was OK. But you know my dad is not happy with me even with you guys all the times, so i decided to go home early. On both our way back, we almost cried. We are both tired and fustrated. We have tried too. Mostly LianLi will try to talk alot to you on MSN and inform you through SMS. When we don't, you don't really initiate to ask us out or message. So when we did not. You slowly realise that we are tired. Not that we are tying to side Dabbie to ignore you. We did not. We are also trying to cheer him up. HE DID! LOL. (damn it HAHA)

Lets see the activities that we can ask you out:
(Because this list is alot shorter then the one we can't ask you out)

a) Starbucks
b) Dining
c) Shop/Window shopping
d) Slack
e) Movie

IT IS SO LITTLE CAN?

My dear, a pool session less just to shop with you is perfectly FINE. I am not complaining. But imagine asking you to join us to play and all you do is sit there and all of us having fun making noise? Dabbie is always there around you. I can tell you, he LOVES you alot. All the time after his turn he will go over to you and accompany you. Hoping you are entertained and not bored and give us your "I AM REALLY SIAN" face. But it is between the 2 of you so this don't really affect our relationship.



eh...tired. EDIT BLOG LTR. still have Point 3,4... =.=

edited on 6th June 2008

As I said yesterday. It is between two of you. It doesn't stop our friendship. You asked why we did not ask you out during Jav's Birthday? 1. He don't want to see you. 2. I really forgot because you never see me remind you before because Lianli always reminds you. 3. Why you never message them la. You told us on friday you just broke up with Dabbie so you don't wanna come over. HMMM. OK. I was speechless. Well, they ended up at my house.

Remember the above points on things we can ask you too? A little on those we can't ask you. ALL Saturday Gym sessions you missed because I am sure you won't come. Nick and YiXun will also never come. Javier only left with us. Pool sessions I did not attend too so I am not sure. Will you wanna join? Sometime next week. Lets sit down and talk our hearts out. Truth. Everything. No point just BOMBarding all in just blogs. If blogs doesnt's exist, then this conflict will NEVER end.

3. G2.

Javier, Christina.. Don't keep EMO-ing. We are here for you. EMO don't help. I know you guys also have Ups and Downs. I experience that too. *smile* ok? Being upset don't help yourself, US and your family (look who's talking). But no matter what. Please cheer up.

Javier. It is over and and done with. Now is us, and more friends. Move on. You are unhappy and sometimes we feel that you are venting your anger on us. For example that day gym at your house. YOU were super fierce and show us attitude can! But at least we had fun right? =)

Plus YiXun problems about him not keeping his words and sticking to only his own girlfriend. If he is like that, regardless of how many times you tell him. SO BE IT. What if one day his girlfriend left him (choy) and he realise all he left with is his family and friends. WHICH IS YOU? Remember. You make your own choices. You are going to leave him as he is. SO DID HE. He made his own choice.

Lets just say we are all young, we will get to experience many things just like now. I am experiencing new things myself. New lessons. My big fight with my mum today was scarry. But I learnt something different again.

Christina. Don't emo le lah~~~~~~ I have been broken too. Then you say i TAO HUA. No la. I was just being me again no matter how hard. I admit I put up a strong front. Well. Can't let you guys be too worried about me right? AiTian was like "EH, YunHua seems so high. Where got upset." HAHA. I told LianLi the other day. You emo lesser, be you again (lesser grumpy darling) and TA-DAH!!~ sooner or later more guys will line up from your house to sentosa (and back).

Lets make our days together more fun and exciting. This is our 4years of friendship and counting..Deeper bondings and understanding ok? XOXO

LianLi. I don't know what to say much about you LOL. Because we practically see each other EVERYDAY. HAHA. But it is only fair to include you =X. Well. Just a simple "I am here for you darling" ok? Good to see you happy now. You know what I mean. Damn you so busy woman. HAHA. You think you own SENTOSA ah. =X

Dabbie. Fuck It. You already ok LOL.

Alvin Chew. You ah. Your problems I ALL DUNNO. lol. REALLY DUNNO. But if you need to talk I am here. Visit us more. =)

WaiLum. I only know that you are very stressful in your studies. Goodluck and YOU CAN DO IT! Stay so near come my school we study in the library. XD

To the other girls (the girlfriends and EX of who-so-ever)

I really don't understand you people. Wads up? Hyper and noisy got problem ah? The fact that we did try to socialise with you bunch is really hard. So many times we ask you out. So many times we try to make you feel like our friends. IT IS REALLY HARD. I really wonder why. But well since so long ago I have already let this go so. FUCK IT. Bye =)

4. Personal.

Sorry Dad. Sorry Mum. You know why. No need any elaborations here. I am trying ok. I did try. I tried to be home more. You did saw that right? I did so right!

5. Un-named

a) Sorry I am frank and truthful. That day out with you was fun. You were really sweet thanks. It really did brightened up my day. Really. As to all that I have said to you. I mean it too. I am crazy and hurt. I know you are trying to assure me. But. There is a spark missing. (i know heck it right)I know you can be my friend and not disappear like the others. Don't disappoint me ok?

b) Damn. HOW COULD YOU. You have charm so what! Have to be like that ah. LOL. You gave me more ups and downs. It was fun talking to you HAHA. Idiot. Don't get angry ok? HAHA.

Lastly. Finally I get this post over and done with... I hope after reading this you all will feedback to me FRANKLY. Don't live a lie. White lies are prohibitted to.

Loves, XOXO (9.40pm)


"You are still the one" By Shania Twain
You still are....??? Maybe...

Take the chance, there must be a way out.
Smile and forgive because things might not seem that bad after all.
Live life as it is, trust your heart
❤
@10:55 PM

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